The envelope, usually white and slim,
bleached as a shell we might press to our ears,
or striped along its flying borders,
sometimes pink, or brown, or puffed,
having traveled that dark space
of slots and chutes and shelves and bags,
having lost faith of finding
either name written on it
ever again, rises out of Mario's hand
into my own. Or I come home
to find it sleeping
in the black box on the slim pole.
And I am rarely equal to it.
We are visited by strangers, saints.
We are visited by the impudent question.
Who holds the knife, the small blade
in a case carved like a fish?
This slicing, this fine rip,
opens a far world, a world apart,
and I try to take it in.
Cranking the creaky door of the heart.
1.
Thank you. The articles about raising children
arrived when my child was being very difficult
and then they vanished. I am certain
they will turn up and he will be
a good boy. In the meantime,
a page describing where one might purchase
Aloha clothing in the capital city of Texas.
Should you have a need. We think of you.
2.
I am sorry I did not answer for so long
but I have been writing to poets in 68 countries
asking to print their poems in the United States.
Yes I am fine. I used to be fine.
What about you?
Each overseas envelope costs 95 cents to mail.
If someone in a far-off country wanted to print your poem
would you say No? Think of the waves and wires
this envelope must cross. The mountains and muddles.
Actually I have no trouble
with poets, only with translators and publishers,
the great go-betweens. This task has come between me
and everything else I love. Can you be patient?
3.
You say you are leaving the island.
You sound very enthusiastic about leaving the island.
Since I left the island, all I care to think about
is the island.
It must be different for you.
You grew up there.
You wear the colors of the horizon inside your bruise.
You have lived on the cliff so long,
staring off to sea dreaming of what lies
on the other side; the big land, the gasp of
rumpled cities, the flush and certainty:
we are what is happening.May you find it. In the meantime your island
stays lodged inside me, a mint
I turn over and over with my tongue for its endless
flavor.
4.
Thank you for the books you sent which connect
quite specifically to everything I have been thinking of
for the last 12 years.
How did you know this?
We barely met. We barely brushed one another
in the flood of comings-and-goings.
I tried to think of something to send in return
but kept being distracted
by the woolen doll on my desk from Chiapas,
her pigtails tied with pink yarn.
Do you want her? She wears a look of having been
recently startled.
5.
Sometimes a new sister comes forward, or a brother,
and the mouth opens on a hello so long and wide
whole countries live inside it.
Where were you yesterday?
Each corner and tree worth telling.
Now we will have to make letters shaped like kites,
flamboyant tails ripped from rainbow cotton
knotted together, flapping on the huge ache of breeze
that rides between.